I started the post thinking I was going to talk about going off to University soon, but in the middle, I realised I was going beyond off topic. So, what the heart is really telling me to blog on now is : Prayer.

I hate to say this but Prayer hasn't exactly been on my list of agendas these days. It's a rather sucky feeling- Not knowing if God's still there after pushing him aside. Even if i start over now, like we can't go all "deep" cause it takes time to go back "deep".

I want to get back to talking to Him big time. I think I'll try again today. Tonight. It's funny how God only comes to mind when I'm left alone, in a quiet room. I'm beginning to understand quiet time now. Think of it as time to recuperate - to put all thoughts away.

something that Elijah asked our youth some days ago

Do you love God? Do you REALLY REALLY love God?

btw, I'm totaly pissed at my boss now. Don't ask why. His a stupid loser.

I'm going to draw a picture of him just to "release"yeah. not very *adult* of me, but it makes me feel happy :)

-cross your heart and hope to die-